Day 36: Technically we're at 37

Ok yeah the title sucks. I get that. Anywho.

Closure: (1) the permanent ending of a business or activity; (4) Conclusion.
My definition: The end of a long struggle. The lifting of a burden.

It's amazing. There's nothing quite like a definitive answer. A conclusion. That's in some ways the greatest part of Lord of the Rings (when you read it and don't take the easy way out and watch the movies): Yes, it's a long book. Yes, sometimes it drags. But as it comes to its conclusion, and it's just this beautiful ending in so many ways, because Frodo receives what Healing there is in the West, and the entire world is healing, and everything is just perfect. It's a closure to everything tumultuous that happens in the books. It's a peaceful ending. That's one of the beauties of death. That was one of the beauties of my prolonged silence.

I am convinced that happiness is contentment. Being satisfied with where you are, not where you want to be. Wanting something else will just lead to a huge chain where you want something more and then something more and something more and it never ends. You have to be content with what you have.

And the truth of the matter is that even though I'm completely satisfied with God, I had a long-standing unclosed matter that needed closing. The matter is now closed, and it is such a sense of relief. That sounds strange, considering for 2 years plus she's been the girl of my dreams.{edit}. How is that relief? It's closure. Much needed closure. That's all that counts. There's a certain peace in closure, and I relish it.

And now I get to go live life and worry about the questions as they come.