Day 9: Where did Day 2 go?

Invariably, as life goes on, one finds oneself moving on in life. I mean its common sense; the further you get down a road, the easier it is to see where you're actually going. For some of us, that "going" goes faster than others. For me in particular, that has been slow up till about a month ago, where it hit the fast forward button x5 and hasn't looked back since. Usually once someone graduates high school they have four things in mind.

The first and foremost is college. Whereas I spent my freshman year at EU, and as much as I hate moving back and forth, it becomes clearer day by day that I will not be able to return. As I said in Day 8, I have no (good) reputation there, and monetarily, the decision to return is suicide. At the most I might return for one semester, because I do need to resuscitate my GPA, and I can do that by fixing that F on my transcript, deserved or no. Fixing the other grade would be pointless, given that it won't transfer to any other schools, so I might just go after my gen-eds and fix the F. The move is still costly, but it sets me up better. That's my situation in short. Oh, and of course I was going to room with my co-writer (aka. The General), and if I do not return for this semester at the very least, I will be the 3rd guy to bail on him, which is bad when you havent even been there for three semesters.

Next on the mind is work/career/what you actually major in during your college years. If my return to EU is in question, this is even worse. Work currently is 30+ hours a week at a fast food joint flipping burgers mopping floors taking orders making fries serving drinks ad nauseum. Let me just say that working in a greasepit is not my idea of fun. My career. . . there are those things I'd like to do, and yet I don't know what I will do. Majoring in history was nice, but without a Masters its worthless because high school social studies positions are taken up by coaches because they're easy classes (which is actually true. I admit that much at least). International Security at OU actually would be my ideal degree, but I haven't decided yet (besides, OU is basically the same price as EU because I'm out-of-state.) Yet another thing in toss up.

And on top of that, since we're talking the future here, is marriage (or lack thereof). Getting out of the relationship that just ended, I'm not exactly looking forward to getting into another one anytime soon. Taking the advice of a good friend that wasn't directly intended for me, but it's basically instead of looking for Mrs. Right, focus on being the right person. I'm already kinda going that way anyways trying to repair my reputation, which means I'm focused on becoming a better person already, but being Mr. Right (or as close to it as possible) is just a different goal. At the very least, it'll be quite a while before I go back and settle into that again.

And lastly, but possibly least, independence. (the least is a joke in case you couldn't figure that out.) If my year at Evangel showed me anything, its great lesson was I am not ready to be independent. And I'm not sure why, but I'm going to close this here.

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